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justafriendofxanders · 9 months ago

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call buffyverse the bermuda triangle because no ship made it out of that shit alive. no marriage finale, no kids, no epilogue. the ideal ending for me where it's just a whole bunch of exes and dead exes in a world where people are constantly coming back to life. multidimensional divorce FOREVER.

#sorry i'm like one of those conservatives obsessed with a particular idea of traditional heterosexual marriage but it's for divorce #to be clear i'm not talking about real divorce just like the people obsessed with Marriage are not actually talking about real marriages #but the IDEA they think it represents #real life is largely too boring and variable to talk about in sweeping terms #but i think the IDEA that two people once in love can fall out of it. unevenly. wretchedly. for the worse. is beautiful.#me watching buffyverse: wow these people are terrible to each other not because they're 'evil' but because they're incredibly human.#hedgehog's dilemma.... just like in my animes....#no resolution!! only the Struggle of Living forever!!!#whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo #buffyposting #btvs

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Hi! Your Hollow Knight AU has really cheered me up so I wanted to do a little drawing for it! This got me to get my art tablet out after months of not feeling like it so thank you for the inspiration! I hope the colors look good on any monitor that's not mine sdfsdf

Bugs In the Jingshi wyd?

I am so genuinely awestruck at how well you translated this AU to the hollow knight style! Also obsessed with the height difference.

#mdzs au #hollow knight #lan wangji #wei wuxian #fanart #Thank you so much for this B'*)#This is *so* incredible!! I feel incredibly honoured to have inspired something so beautiful!#I showed this asap to my friend who's been letting me observe their hollow knight playthrough and oh man oh man. The hype was real.#The colours have the Hollow Knight gloomy swag and the way that this looks like it could be an area in the game is soooooo good.#Thinking about the bug sounds they would make.....Peace and love on earth could be achieved with lwj hollowspeak....#I hope you keep finding fun things to draw!! Your art has continuously brought a lot of joy!#I very much understand the pain and struggle of having a craft you just...cant seem to get your heart back into.#Sending you so much love and energy and artistic inspiration!!!!#(lwj has the wrong eye shape b/c I was too focused on getting the silly angle for dramatic perspective. whoops)#I have honestly loved doing this AU and I'm fiercely happy that its been resonating with people (as it makes me want to do more hehe)

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spicyycarrot · 12 days ago

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#arcane critique #arcane criticism #arcane critical #before anyone comes for me #I don't hate arcane #it's one of my favorite shows of all time but that's why I wanted it to be better #it fails to address incredibly prominent issues of class struggle #which are literally #baked #into the world of Piltover & Zaun #the animators cooked as always #but I've lost a lot of respect for the writers for how they handled or rather didn't handle these elements #this is your reminder not to hold real people up to impossibly high standards #you will get disappointed

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syn4k · 1 year ago

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to be, or not to be (romanticization of the inevitable)

#ray's tag #keys' art #undescribed #skeletons #ok to reblog #the skeleton model that i traced for this was provided by the incredible kiku @kikunai whom you can find right here on tumblr!#so uh. This is a piece about chronic fatigue although the original idea i had for it drifted a bit as soon as I started coloring the linear #(i really enjoy shading and lighting things and got a bit carried away here but i stand by my choice because this is my favorite thing #that i've ever drawn)#anyways. i often feel especially lately with school being back in season that my bones are leaden with this sort of. weariness. theyre heav #it weighs on our mental health and energy a lot and although there's a couple of reasons we have been given for it #that doesn't remove the fact that this is still a thing that affects us in a very real way day to day although we are good at masking it.#often i come home to find that i do not have the physical mental or creative energy to work on things i really want to #especially project: nexus which i feel extra bad about even though i can't help it because i just started it so recently #it is a mild to moderate struggle to make it day to day and i just. wanted to represent this somehow #my original concept for this was a skeleton with some black goop gunk whatever leaking from its joints #but as i started adding the cracks and coloring them gold (a personal touch; kintsugi is a concept that is very dear to us)#i realized that the focus here was less on the condition itself and more on the body that it afflicts.#so i put it into a spotlight.#ironic i know since very little people acknowledge this irl or even know it exists at all but i added rim lighting. I added color gradients #I colored the lineart and made it all fancy and even added a flare for the head to get the point across that even at its core; disability i #a performance. this is not implying that disabilities are fake in fact this is the opposite of that. i wanted to show that with disabilitie #especially i think in my personal opinion the invisible ones #we are all masking at least a little bit during the vast majority of the day. humans are social creatures and it is only when we are alone #or with someone we deeply trust where we allow ourselves to be who we truly are without fear and even then that can be rare #so i wanted to show this bit of the soul in as broad a limelight as i could. idk this is a really abstract piece and i dont know if anyone #will even get it but it matters to me at least. and even though we've been largely bedridden for the past week i think that's okay #we will get it figured out. all of us. okay? okay. i love you. i fucking love you. we are going to fucking make it #(also the xes over the eyes are because i thought they looked cool they have no deeper meaning at least i think they dont #actually i think they do but i cant put it into words idk. Art is subjective assign your own meaning i'm gonna go get a shower)

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shalomniscient · 3 months ago

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natlan 5.1 was batshit insane but i won't deny cookery when i see it. last 1/3 of the archon quest is just brilliantly done in my opinion, from writing to level design to soundtrack. just genuine excellence

#sev.screams #natlan #the character centric parts were rather weak to me #ororon has an intriguing arc but i don't care enough about him to care about the arc #similarly i only felt a surface level investment with a lot of the other main cast; though funnily enough excluding citlali #she's a breath of fresh air amongst the cast and i really enjoyed her screentime #there are a lot of story decisions in this quest that i'm impressed and glad hoyo decided to take; it adds a layer of realism to natlan tha #was missing in inazuma and ultimately i believe was the reason inazuma flopped as a nation #there is real tangible weight in the things that happen in natlan; i felt moved by the story and i think that's the hallmark of a good stor #i hope in the next archon quest they don't undo or undermine these decisions in any way. they truly contributed so much to the overall tone #of the story that to remove them would be like taking the legs out from underneath it #writing aside the environmental storytelling and level design also contributed so much to crafting the atmosphere of this quest #it felt gut wrenching in a way inazuma never did. for even the briefest moment these npcs were people and you were watching them struggle #a poignant beautiful desperate struggle that i think is so incredibly human and both moving and heartbreaking to witness #also helped by the exquisite ost. hoyomix has certainly not lost their touch even with yu peng chen gone #despair hope triumph relief; all captured so wonderfully in a score i know i will be listening to for the next few weeks once it drops #i'm rambling so much but. i liked this a lot and i can only hope hoyo sticks the landing on this one #i hate having high expectations but i can't help it for this one i fear

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thepringlesofblood · 11 months ago

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anyone else having to go through fhjy at a snail's pace bc every time there's a teacher-student interaction (even the positive ones!) you want to set something on fire because of how much you hate high school and american academic culture and it throws you back to the Bad Old Days of actually being in high school, but also you really like fantasy high and you really like the characters and their story and the players and the way they're exploring & critiquing the US school system and basically everything about the show but actually watching it makes your brain explode?

#dimension 20 #d20 #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #original post #look every time porter comes on screen i lowkey have a rage blackout #my hyperempathetic ass needs to watch recaps or read the transcripts or something #its too goddamn much #bc fantasy high has never actually been about like. the academics #but now that it is and now that aguefort is functioning more as a prestigious private school than as a lawless wasteland #its actually bringing back memories of me being in high school. the bad ones.#so its like. it turns out that the thing i liked about fantasy high was that it wasn't actually high school as i remember it #look i think what they're doing this season is genius #brennan is the perfect person to tackle this kind of topic #and each character has a different struggle that is both unique and yet resonates with the real world #and academic trauma is incredibly underdiscussed and i love that d20 has the guts to address it #i just need to take 3-5 business days to process every like. hour of content #so. we'll see how long it takes me to finish it

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musical-chick-13 · 2 months ago

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Like. The last thing I'm going to say is that I see a lot of comments about how "Well Americans probably deserve whatever is coming to them" because [some variation of how we are all equally violent and stupid and of course we elected this guy] and I will be the FIRST one to go, "Fuck America for real, I hate it here" but. There are in fact millions of people who did not want this. Who actively fought against it and will continue to do so.

BELIEVE ME, I understand the impulse to go, "Well with all the shit America has done to the rest of the world, why should I feel bad for them." I understand that compassion fatigue is real. And I DEFINITELY don't think it's the rest of the world's job to fight my battles for me or prioritize my feelings above anyone else's.

But if people are worried for their safety. If they're scared. If they're wondering how they and the people they love are going to survive the next few years. If people are feeling despair and despondence over the fact that they are stuck in an absolutely hellish landscape they did not ask for. Just...please let them have that. You don't have to tell them that you think they deserve it.

#us politics #I just think that every vulnerable person who tried to prevent this probably would not in any way benefit or become a better person from #hearing 'you are acceptable collateral damage of the upcoming administration because America Sucks'#like my dudes I am not even asking you to HELP ME I know we all need to put on our own oxygen masks first. I am just asking you to have #a little bit of sympathy for the people who are about to go through an INCREDIBLE amount of struggle that they will have limited #individual power to fight against.#it's not hopeless! it's not! but this isn't like sw episode 4 where a single person can destroy the death star and the entire empire will #be directly and significantly kneecapped. there is only so much in this real world situation that one individual person can do.#a lot of people are going to have a harder time finding other people to connect with to get through this. all I'm asking is that you #do NOT make it harder on them by telling them their misfortune is brought on themselves for things they didn't do. or by telling them that #there is no way they can ever be happy or fulfilled or a good person.#there is NOTHING a person can do to 'deserve' the extreme loss of human rights that this party wants to make into a reality #if you believe that someone CAN ever 'deserve' the loss of those rights...#well I think that you and I are so fundamentally different in an ideological sense that there's no point in us speaking to each other

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chatdae · 8 months ago

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honestly it doesn't bug me that Jerry Seinfeld is bad at acting because the other main cast of Seinfeld are so good, Jerry's acting becomes a joke in and of itself.

#The three of them maintain the emotional immersion #Jerry's incredibly one-note acting is amusing but its not enough to overpower the costars and make the show feel fake #yknow???#Anyway. Jerry can do like. 2 emotions convincingly #mild social discomfort and mild amusement #legit his amused+disapproving reaction to his friends' bullshit usually (Elaine or George) is when the character feels most real #that and when he is trying to hide some mid / insulting opinion from a gf #On an in-universe note; it's VERY funny to imagine that Jerry is just an incredibly odd man #Always reacting as if amused on some level; speaks in a highpitch monotone whenever upset #Gives delightful autism vibes tbh #A guy who struggles with / cant do neurotypical emotional expression #He learned to be funny in order to be accepted socially (even turned it into a profit!)#but the catch is that this comedy-oriented mask is the only form of external emotional expression he knows how to do #'why arent you taking this seriously' 'istg i AM i just communocate exclusively thru jokes regardless of how i feel. yeah its a whole thing'#seinfeld #oh no she's writing headcanons abt the silly show #jerry seinfeld #my words #seinfeld thoughts

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sucresanguine · 1 month ago

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The biggest problem with the male loneliness epidemic rhetoric is that people have forgotten that it was originally about men lacking support in male friendships. Then the manoshphere fuckfest got ahold of it and determined that duh, the only important relationships men can have are sexual, and all real men are straight, so clearly this is about men needing women to fix them. And then everyone just fuckin agreed to that dogshit definition. It's the polar opposite issue, and I think it serves in some part to take away from just how much can be learned from the community I've seen queer men hold for one another

#I've found myself feeling bad for occasionally needing a night with other queer men but honestly #yeah. i need that. a lot of them that know me dont instinctually treat me differently. and it's honestly incredibly comforting #theres a similar sincere emotional bandwidth. theres a sort of cunty brotherhood and i honestly love it #theres a lot of trauma and a lot of shit to correct each other on but the relationships feel real in a way that ive honestly struggled with #with straight womanhood's understanding of friendship #queer womanhood i dont know you but you all seem to be having a grand old time so keep it up

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kang-yo-han · 15 days ago

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So I watched all of Spare Me Your Mercy in the span of 36-ish hours and it lowkey rocked me to my core

#I’ve always been a firm and unwavering supporter of voluntary euthanasia #and Kan’s desperation to provide people with the peaceful and dignified deaths the law denies them resonated so deeply with me #I struggle to understand the perspectives of people who would rather let a person suffer indefinitely #than allow them to die peacefully on their own terms #Kan is just an incredible character and I share his desperation and frustration #his final monologue (and the following flashback to Tew’s mother’s last moments) seriously brought me to tears #Tor’s performance felt so raw and real #this drama had its flaws but it’s DEFINITELY going to stick with me and I’m sure I’ll eventually rewatch #and I do actually want to read the books too #spare me your mercy

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wrongcaitlyn · 2 months ago

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Babe, what's arcane??

oh boy.

#the greatest show in existence but that's not an adequate summary #short sales pitch: lesbians and angsty sisters along with magic shenanigans and death #real answer: a heartbreaking tale of two sisters and their struggles in an oppressive society as their city is on the brink of war and the #deal with the trauma of death and abandonment #as well as the greatest love story of all time (the main couple IS ACTUALLY CANONICALLY A LESBIAN COUPLE)#super epic animation and some incredible fight scenes!!!#seriously you won't regret watching it #just don't look at the league of legends underneath the title we don't associate with that #wrongcaitlyn #wrongcaitlyn asks #arcane

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moe-broey · 8 months ago

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Going to the mall as I am now (kinda punky/extremely autistic) is kinda funny like. That's a nice shirt. However, it's not one of my thousand beloved black graphic t shirts and it is such a texture and kind of a weird shape to it and honestly I don't really wanna buy any sort of fast fashion type shit or brand shit. Don't care. Oh they have patches. Kinda cute but straight up I can just make those. In fact, I would prefer to. Don't care. Also I'm not buying that.

#i've kind of become a very hard person to please but it's deceptive. in both directions #what i really want is materials. and incredibly specific things.#also just. something about the patches that were designs/artwork like. i feel like i'm being sold an aesthetic #when like. yeah. yeah you are quite literally LMFAOOOOOO #i wanna start a for real battle jacket.... a sturdy but lightweight enough vest for daily wear...#i have a vest but it's flimsy as fuck and not the right shape for me. so i think i'll scrap it for patches #i still gotta figure out how to make nice patch designs though. that is something i struggle w for some reason #but like. i'm not buying mall patches LMFAOOO like. idk it almost feels insulting #idk idk maybe i'm taking it too seriously LMFAO but it does feel like brazen commodification #of something that's like. you're supposed to do it yourself. kinda goes against the whole point #ideologically too. but again maybe i'm just too serious about it.#but like above all i don't want Things i want stuff to make things.#OH MY GOD I GOT IT. those fucking patches were the live laugh love of people who want the aesthetic and edge of punk #but none of the roughness. none of the shittiness. and none of the actual philosophy behind it.#gooooddddddddd i probably sound insufferable though LMFAOOO #i also just feel like a poser myself at times like. i could go deeper i think.#anyways. most important thing and whole point of the trip was manga. got some manga 👍🫡

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lighthouseshepard · 6 months ago

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#uh oh i am #feeling very much not like a real person today #just incredibly anxious for no reason i know of #like my body's still in hyper go mode but i mean #this is my first day off in 5 days so maybe thats in?#like i cant convince myself to relax or that i dont have something im pressed for time to do #and im just so tired #and its creating this weird space where i feel Iike im existing a little to the left of reality #the wind is warm and the sky outside is an expanse of blue with crested clouds but i cant take it in #attention span is all over the place #going from like sad to happy to The Longing to feeling left out of my own life #what the fuck brain can i just have #one normal day when im at home BLEASE #i wanted to write today! but even when im sitting still its like im floating #caspost #tbd #sorry i don't mean to complain i feel like ive been doing that alot lately #i am the captain of the struggle bus and its careening into traffic #my mind has the mouth feel of pop rocks and the look of tv static

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roomba-mangga · 5 months ago

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taking a little break from writing for a few days to cool down the brain but first... yaad&thistle au fic preview under the cut. this is clocking in at 12k atm, i haven't finished drafting all the scenes yet, but i am deeply enjoying this one.

#context: yaad Attempts Diplomacy. thistle finds this offensive. curses him to be an old man in a petty fit.#(side note thistle here is sort of in between his pre-dungeon self and his far-gone dungeon lord self)#however in this au he's in exile and trying to curry favor with delgal which means playing nice with his grandson #so now he's like ah shit that was. random. <3 i can undo it <33 you didnt tell grandpa about this did you #yaad should get a little fed up as an old man. as a treat #they're incredibly fun to write so far... the thing is they do resonate on a similar wavelength once they reach a point of civility #theyve got this shared Servant Of The People mentality it's just a matter of finding common ground wrt how to effectively go about that #thistle runs the world but yaad governs it too (delgal is um. comatose) so. figure it out. chop chop #once they do hit that stride though it's like unclogging your windpipe. kind of nice #that aside their experiences and struggles overlap sm it's so ripe for exploration #lots of scenes discussing Adult Matters while playing house like kids with dolls #not rlly knowing how to make sense of their lives and the world around them bc they have no healthy/Real frame of reference #(psychological trauma?? in MY golden country??? it's normal to constantly dissociate but okay)#but knowing for certain that they have Obligations and duties to fulfill... theyre doing their best your honor #i'm such a thistle & yaad shill rn i think i mightve come off as a hater in another post but oughh they are Everything #anyway tangent over i just needed to yap a bunch before my 2 day break shfjkhkf #roomba writes #dungeon meshi fic #thistle & yaad #thistle #yaad #txt

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streatfeild · 6 months ago

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he‘s so…!!!!!!!

#he recognised me when i walked past him on the street this morning 🥺#he was so fucking nice again ughghhhg 😭😭😭😭😭#also can i just say. props to me for having a steady hand this time!! and i wasn’t talking nonsense!! i used real words and actual grammar!#geoffrey streatfeild #tsfs #also the play was SO. FUCKING. CAMP.#incredible #and once again he played a gay man without realising it (while being the most un-camp person on stage)#'sir peter‘s in the closet' YEAH HE SURE IS #peter/oliver? yeah they were a thing #good night #ALSO i‘m glad i‘m not the only one who has tilted cap syndrome #thank you sir for validating my struggle 🫡🙏#my face

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frogatz · 23 days ago

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monthly calypsoworld tag ramble :]

#it’s actually incredibly tragic . but that does not mean the prototypes cannot be fun #like ohhh every second i think about them i know they are destined for frankly horrible deaths . just due to the nature of their existence #i’ve been approaching pvp2003 by mostly just . fleshing out the things that i need to as they come up . Mostly #the the anesidora prototypes have been horribly neglected . on the account of not really being important to calypso’s development LOL #but that does need to change . and maybe that Will change if i play around with them some more #always feel like such a freak when i kill my own characters sorry like yea … i made a guy … AND THEYRE DEAD BTW. but what can i sayyyyy .#calypso’s Whole Thing is abt death and rebirth . somewhat literally and somewhat figuratively #ten dies and becomes anesidora (real actual literal death. less literal transformation)#anesidora dies and becomes calypso (purely metaphorical)#calypso dies and … stays the same? she should be someone else but she doesn’t really have it in her anymore to become someone new #<- (not literal? but not Entirely hypothetical. she got blown up and was dead but she got better)#the anesidora prototypes that came before her Also struggled heavily with identity . Most of their downfalls boil down to a very violent ego #death . ego death #anesidora 1-8 dealt with identity as clones . identity as robots . dysmorphia as robots . also just generally poorly thought out designs #how fucked would it be to wake up in your cool new robot body built for fighting and it just Doesn’t work off the bat . <- A-2 #they figured That out by A-3 but A-10 (calypso) was the only prototype to make it into field testing #i love A-9 . 9 is really exciting to me bc she is a question i’ll never answer . what happened to her ? wouldn’t you like to know.#all i’ll tell you is that she never made it into a robot . maybe she’s still out there . (going ooooo ooooo and waggling my fingers)

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